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Finding My Place

By March 4, 20072 Comments

What week it’s been. Wow. I don’t think I’ve updated for at least that long, maybe even a week and a half. I’ve been incredibly busy. But in my last post I was talking about how I wasn’t sure if I wanted to go through with being in the Mr. Deep Run Pageant. Well, I am so glad I did.

First off, I didn’t know at that time what I was going to do for my talent. But then it hit me: I could pull a video off… that’s one of my few gifted areas in life. I was going to do stand-up comedy, but I knew I couldn’t make it all that funny. I think I have very interesting observations on life, but they’re not laugh out loud funny, and it just wouldn’t have worked out. Lizzy, Jenn, and Winston, sorry for getting all defensive about it, you were right. So the solution? I made a video showing me coming offstage from the opening song/dance making it look like I forgot my tux and had to go back home to get it. When I got home, I ran upstairs to get it, and tripped and fell down the steps on the way back down and passed out. It then appears like I’m having a dream about seeing a recap of me doing a bad dance performance up at Mr. Deep Run on the Wildcat News the following Monday morning. When I wake up again, Jenn calls me asking where I am and I drive as fast as I can to get back to school in time to go on stage for my act. Officer Woodburn then pulls me over and gives me a speeding ticket, but he lets me off the hook and I run in to the auditorium. As soon as I pull the door to go in, I actually ran up on stage and acted like I was going to start doing a comedy routine. Then Austin says they’re out of time and I freak out, go off stage. That’s it. Everyone said it was pretty clever. I’m just happy I thought of something decent to do for my talent.

Secondly, one of my biggest fears has always been being up on stage in front of a large group of people. But throughout the whole opening dance number, going up for leisurewear, after my film, and the question and answer session, I wasn’t nervous, not even the least bit, for a second. It was so cool. And when I got up there and had everyone cheering for me, it was the greatest feeling in the world. I felt like I could do anything, and I still feel that way. It’s great. I was honored to make it to the finalists, too. I honestly didn’t think I’d make it there just because I filmed something rather than staying on stage the whole time doing an act live. That video, and the sun costume, took several near all-nighters this week to pull both off. Anyway, this has been probably the best experience I’ve had this year and maybe in all four years of high school, just because of what I overcame and how great it made me feel. Click to see my video on Youtube!

Best of all, after getting all the great feedback I got on my video, and the ones I do for the Wildcat News, I think I finally know what I want to do with my life. It was between this, photography, web design, radio, and computer services. I think I’ve narrowed it down to something in the video, film, television, or productions field. Something with filming or editing. It’s what makes me happiest and gives me the greatest satisfaction. It’s something with which you can see the fruits of your labor right away. So I think I may do something like that as a career. It’s nice to start to find your place, your meaning, and your purpose in life on a grander scale.

I don’t have the time nor the need to go into everything else I’ve done over the past week and a half like I normally do when I update daily, but it’s been a great, albeit stressful, week. Last night, Alex came over to do the podcast and I really think we nailed it this time. We only had a couple minutes of small talk about our day/week, and then transitioned into really, really deep topics on religion and whether the soul exists, and other stuff like that only Alex and I would talk about. It was great, go listen to it! Then we went to Carytown and ate at Nacho Mama’s and got coffee at Starbucks. We had probably our best conversations on deep stuff ever.